...some more

I like this picture- (see http://www.baytrust.org.uk/assets/images/stillness.jpg)- I have seen so many drippy pictures of 'stillness'.... picture the scene- slightly drippy person talking in very strained 'spritual' tones...enough already....

...but that is how I feel...not always and certainly not in an 'um zen' way.....perhaps more an awareness now that I have done what I can do & the rest is up to God. At the moment I feel less anxious in the middle of busyness.

I guess I am also (see blog posting for Wednesday) becoming more aware that part of me will never fit and I'm becoming more comfortable with that....whilst at the same time not trying to slip into 'wilful angularity' TM (I've put 'TM' there as I've just coined that phrase...).

Also..... and perhaps its a 'decade thing'- now in my 40s- I feel more an urge to be creative, to experiment. If something is too staid or too predictable (apart from keeping my cd's in alphabetical order- there are limits)....inside I have my tongue out and am going 'thrrrrupppp'.

That is quite enough soul baring for now. On with the business of serious ministry.....important ecumenical business doesn't become boring all by itself...it needs working on...